Hello! im so sorry i forgot to update yesterday. but to be honest nothing intresting has happened yesterday and today. unless you count having some of the worst dysphoria ive ever felt as something intresting. im not sure why ive felt it but i swear to fuck this blue hair has done something to me recently. m like five milliseconds of cutting all my hair off. sure i like having blue hair (although i looked better with my pink hair) im not sure why ive felt this way. im avoiding going outside too to be honest. ive had so many chances to go outside and i just.. havent? idk. i cant think right now. i cant think of anyting except being a guy. maybe thats why i like kissing men so much idk. Watching shameless has made me miss being in a relationship, especially cuz of Ian and Mickey (who the fuck calls their kid after a mouse be fr
its sunny utside so im thinking of going to this charity shop thats really fucking good. idk. i dont know anything anymore. but shockingly im not depressed (he says, after thinking about killing himself like 2 hours ago) but im happy.
i think i might be tired? i havent really slept in the last few days. like. ive had three hours per day? i should sleep more. but the ache in my chest is making me hate beng a girl even more. i was looking at binders but i feel fake. like im faking it. i mean i like feminine things! skirts are okay. well they havent been okay for a few weeks and i havent felt comftable being called she but yk. my mum would hate me for being trans and my stepmum is already suspicious. PLUS school would suck (it might not actually but whatever.) ive never liked labels, ao even though i might not be bisexual i still say i am. anything that walks, thats me.
i think im going to go to the charity shop
i miss frank.
OKAY!!! i went to the charity shop, and it was pretty good :333. my stepsister rung all the bells and asked if they were for sale though. i got a cd rack!! it doesnt have enough cd spaces :( i saw this nice shirt but i didnt wanna spend too much money. it was only like 3 quid but still, anyways. the CD rack is a little rusty too but it fits with the mould in my room (we live in a rental so we cant fix it unfortunatey.)
im thinking of cleaning my room. i havent done it in awhile and i was thinking about inviting people round to my house (i probably wont but yk) i share it with my stepsister so it always ets messy when im not here (my parents are also not together if you didnt get that from me having a stepsister) her side of the room is pretty shit compared to my side tbh. i might do that rn, blogging is growing on me actually! im having fun
hello! cleaned my room AND! im over frank. honestly id feel bad still liking him, and at this point i know i have no chance. sure it was nice but theres other people! this definately helped, but im gonna miss kissing people (sucks ass tbh 0/10) and i miss what he said about me. but fuck it theres other people out there and hes my friend. i feel a little pain in my heart but that should be gone tomorrow im just having heart issues rn. goodnight everyone!!!